So what is next

After I am done with my degree I know that I want to do my BA, but where is the question. I also have to decide what I want to do employment wise. So I decided that I am going to take the Civil Service exam for corrections. The exam is in the end of October so I have extra studying to do. It should be fun. I just hope that it may open up more opportunities and doors for me in my life.

Back to school

Well it is indeed that time of year again. Back to school. I think that the hardest part is getting used to a new schedule. I am taking five classes. Two of which are online and three in school. I also have my internship this semester. I just got my placement today and I am doing it with the schools security department. It should be fun but I can also see it being a little boring. I guess I will see when it starts next week. It is such an easier schedule than I have taken before, but it is so close to the end of my degree that I think that I am ready to move on to the next school or step of the process. Well here goes I guess back to writing papers every week and my computer being my best friend. Some days I do not even want to turn it on.

The service

"A person is only truly dead when they are forgotten"

"His memory will live on forever with our love"

The service was very nice and it was wonderful that the family all came together to say goodbye to Grandpa Cy. His memory will never fade but may he now rest in peace and be reunited with his wife in heaven.

All our love.

The Ticket

So here is the ticket that cost $157.00 It is a funny story but still made me a bit mad. I was driving on the 288 north on a Sunday afternoon going to visit my dad. I had just got my car fixed because it would shake when I went over 60. That may have been my first mistake. I was going along with all the other traffic when I get pulled over. All the Virginia people were going just as fast as I was if not faster. I asked the cop why he chose me out of everyone that was speeding and he told me that I was guaranteed revenue because I would probably not come back to go to court to fight it. He did however also tell me that he was giving me a break because if I had been a Virginia resident I would have also had a charge for reckless driving. Oh well it happens but I still think he was wrong for singling me out. Damn rednecks picking on the yanks. Ha ha no really it was a bit expensive but it is one of those stories with a cost I guess.

Everything can change

So I am out doing all the running around that I needed to when my father calls and tells me that my grandfather passes away this morning at nine am. Wow . . . I really had nothing to say. So the family that I just spent a week with is coming up for the service that will be on Friday. Everything can change so fast. I was not expecting this to happen. He will be missed by many and loved forever. It is always hard to say goodbye to someone that you love. I hope that everything goes well , or as well as it could go.

My dearest Pop Pop may you rest in peace and be reunited with grandma mutize.

Great to be home

Vacation is always nice but coming home is better. So I decided that I was going to leave a day early so that I could have a day at home to relax and get everything done that I needed to. So I went to my dad's house Sunday night and spent the night. I was going to go visit my friend Chuck on Monday night but I decided to go home. So I left at eleven am. And I arrived home at about eleven thirty that night. A seven hour trip turned out to be twelve. I was taking my time and stopping at things that I found to be interesting all in the rain. It rained the whole twelve hours. So I was on my way and I missed an exit. I figured because I was going east I would run into a road that would take me north. I was sadly mistaken. So after being lost for about two hours I finally called my mom for directions. She was able to help and I found my way home. I can say that I never felt better to be home.

Vacation

What does the word vacation mean to you? For one thing my job does not understand what the word means. So Friday night I get a call about the back door being locked. I am six hundred miles away and do not have the keys. Sometimes I wonder if they think before they call me. But I called who I needed to and fixed the problem. So at six o five in the morrning on Saturday I get a phone call saying that the store was not opened, again I AM ON VACATION! so I explained this again and gave out the number of who to call. Just once in my life I want to go on a vacation and not have to be bothered with work. I doubt highly that it will ever happen though.

Wow a lot has happened

Well where should I start when it comes to this week. So Wednesday I spent the day with the kids. I took Megan, Kim and Charlie out to lunch and shopping for presents for them. It was a fun day of running around an area I am not to found of. Then we went and watched Megan try out for the Richmond Rampage softball team (12 and under). She did well but for some reason could not hit the ball to save her life. Everyone but me and Charlie stayed over at Johns house so me and Charlie had the house to ourselves. It would have been better if I did not have to be up at six in the morrning to take Charlie to the filming of the pilot he is in. The name still makes me laugh (The teenie bopper bango) crazy I know but he is enjoying being a part of it. I do not know if it will even make it to TV but if you ask him he is going to be a star. So Thursday night Megan had more tryouts so during the day I took her and Kim to the batting cages, well she still could not hit the ball so mom went and got her a new bat while I went and got my car looked at because it was shaking really bad. It turned out that the tires just needed to be balanced which was only a thirty dollar fix so it worked out. Then we went to Megans tryouts. She did wonderfull in the outfield but still could not hit the ball. It looked like a storm was comming so the coach's decided they were going to post the list of the team online at ten. Well the storm did come. Me and meg went to get ice cream and came home. The rain and wind were crazy. So about twenty to ten wouldn't you know the power goes out so we could not check the list. Nothing is more fun then an eleven year old scared of a storm and crying because she thought she did not make the team. Mom called another parent and found out that by pure luck Megan had made the team. It made for a better night. So bright and early Friday mornning, I had to take Charlie back to the tapping of his thing. It was so unorganized because of the storm and the loss of power that I ran around for two hours with him. I finally dropped him off and went home with Megan to go take a nap and boy did I need it. When I woke up me and mom went out for some girl time and then Charlie joined us for dinner. It was fun. I was going to leave Saturday morrning to go to Charlotsville to see Krystal and Sebe but neither one of them really could figure out when or where so I stayed at moms. Why I am still wondering. . . nine eleven year olds at a sleepover and a lot of sugar need I say more. Well tomorrow I am off to see dad then hopefully to west va to see my boy Chuck then home. It should be fun.

I'm here

So not really a fun trip with an eleven year old on a seven hour car ride, but I have made it here. So lets see what fun the week will bring me spending time with the family. I hope at least that I will be able to update pictures due to the fact that I only get to see the kids like once a year. Well it should be fun and I am excited to be here the way back should be easier. I can site see and visit a few schools that I am interested in attending in December. Is is always nice to go away for a while at least I get out of work for a week no matter how crazy my trip will be.

Vacation

Well if you can even call that. A week and a half without work in a different state ok it is a vacation. So I am going down to VA for a week and a half to visit the family and all that good stuff. Just to get away from all the drama in NY will be wonderful. I hope to come back with a different perspective on a lot of stuff in my life. Well I am off for a seven hour drive.

Crazy . . .

Life is Crazy.

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, but it is not until you have experienced the event completely that you learn the reason.

What does not kill us makes us stronger.

I also believe that everyone comes into your life for a reason and when you become aware of this reason they exit your life.

I can only hope that the things in my life to come are not as tragic and sad as my past has been. I also hope that the people currently in my life will never exit it. You may not alway be aware of why someone does something, but in the end it is all part of the lesson you were meant to learn from them. I hope that I still have a lot to learn from certain people in my life so that they will be here for a long time.

Big Decisions

Ok so the summer is almost over and that means back to school. Well at least I get one more vacation down to VA to see the family, but September is just around the corner. Well I am happy that I only have one more semester before I graduate with my Associates degree, but now I have big decisions to make. Where do I want to go to college? In some ways I want to go as far away from New York as possible and just start over where no one knows who I am, but then I think of everything I would be leaving. I think that in some respects it would be the best thing for me. I would be able to see who in my life really cares enough to keep in touch with me and who will just forget me. I am undecided however I am looking in to colleges both in New York and everywhere else. It amazes me that this seems so hard for me. I want and I need to do something for me with no one else to influence my decisions. I keep thinking how much of other peoples lives I will miss if I leave though. My sister's first baby, my godchild's first day of school, her sister being born. The things that I want to be a part of but my mind keeps telling me to follow my heart and fulfill my dreams because no ones else can do it for me. BIG DECISIONS SUCK!

Forgotten

If ever anyone could be Forgotten
I would be the one
As I sit alone I try to figure
How I could have won
An on going battle
A war that never ends
You fight until you find a wall
That may or may not bend
If you can bend my wall my friend
Forever I will stay
In your heart and in your dreams
Peace is not far away
For if a wall is never bent
And a battle never won
Then I am the one you have Forgotten
And forever I am that one